Yesterday, I followed my gut and chose to not follow a recommendation given to me. The recommendation didn't feel right for me; it didn't feel right for us. Instead I went in a different direction and this new direction felt right. I felt hopeful about the prospects it presented; I felt empowered in the situation for the first time in months.
Today my gut was telling me to yet again not follow a recommendation from this same individual. But instead of feeling empowered and hopeful by going my own direction, I'm feeling conflicted and defeated. Is this because of the face to face confrontation involved? The need to justify my decision in explicit detail? Or is it something bigger?
Part of me wonders if I'm making a pragmatic decision, or if I'm letting preconceived notions guide my thoughts today.
I wish for the clarity yesterday brought. Doubting one's self is tough.