August 7, 2006

Closing in

Upon logging onto the computer this morning I realized that at 25 weeks pregnant (to the day) I only have 5 days to go until my countdown in the double digits begins. I think that's when it may start to seem more real. Once I've gone well past the halfway point and have less than 100 days until this little one arrives.

I think that I'm still in denial. Even though the constant nausea and vomiting is a blatant reminder of my pregnancy I don't think that reality has yet to sink in. Even the barrage of kicks/punches the little one delivers doesn't quite make it seem real.

Perhaps it's because we've been so busy with work and preparing to close on the new house.

Perhaps it's because I haven't started buying any of the large items we'll need for the baby.

Perhaps it's because I still feel like crap and have yet to experience that "magical" second trimester where your energy returns and you enjoy being pregnant.

Perhaps it's because I still can't believe that luck turned in our favor and everything fell into place.

Who knows the reasoning behind it. Hopefully reality starts to sink in soon. My days are numbered and that number is dwindling.

2 comments:

Kristen said...

I guess it could also be that pregnancy never truly sets in. It is the arrival of that precious little person that makes it all real. Enjoy these last few months. They say your first pregnancy is the only one you ever get to "enjoy." I know yours hasn't been terribly enjoyable, but it is one of lifes great journeys.

Jessica said...

I think everything will start to sink in once you have your baby shower(s), and you start to buy all the necessities. I don't think mine set in until last weekend when I had my shower. It's weird, you "show", but I don't think it really affected me until I figured out I only had 45 days to go! It goes quick those last few months. Try to enjoy them while you can, even though it's hard.