December 14, 2007

Change in Plans

I'm so incredibly frustrated today that I can barely see straight.

See that ticker above this post? We're leaving on Sunday for our holiday "vacation". (It says 1 day until insanity but it should really say 2.) Due to numerous circumstances we made the choice to make our cross-country trek this year via our own vehicle. Two adults, two obnoxious dogs and a 13 month old crammed into my SUV for 1800 miles. Yeah. We're nuts. But we didn't go to Michigan last Christmas because KT was only 6 weeks old and we felt it was important to spend the holiday with family.

I've been stressed for weeks getting ready for this trip. Making lists of things that need to be done; putting together listings for pet friendly hotel accommodations along I-80; fretting over Christmas gifts and where to send them when ordering online; continuously adding and crossing things off of packing lists. I think I've mentioned before that I have OCD. Trips like this are very hard for me to prepare for. I don't ever relax until I'm back home and everything is unpacked.

Yesterday I had a meltdown. I'm not sure what triggered it but I sat here at the kitchen table and cried for almost an hour. I've been so busy with work, KT and everything else that all the sudden I realized this trip starts this weekend. I probably would have sat here crying for longer had it not been for an infuriating email I received from work.

Many of you know that a good part of my salary is paid for by a grant. For this grant we are required to turn in yearly reports that detail our progress. It's due at the end of December. You don't have to be a genius to figure out what's coming next. Yesterday around noon, email reminders went out to the main investigators listed on the grant that this report is due in a little over two weeks. So people are immediately concerned about the deadline and ensuring this report gets completed on time.

I'll tell you how it's going to get done on time. I'll work my butt off today and tomorrow to get as much done as possible. When we pull out of our driveway on Sunday, my laptop will be packed in the vehicle. Upon arriving in Michigan, my plans will be shifted around to make sure this stupid report gets done in time to allow people to review it before it needs to be submitted. It will need to be finished before Christmas, to give the reviewers a couple of days after Christmas to look at it. I'm unavailable to work from the 29th on, so I'll have to submit it the 28th. On my mom's horribly ssssllllloooooooooooooowwww dial-up connection.

So much for a vacation.

**This also means that I might have to adjust some plans I've made with some of you -- especially those I was trying to see next week. I'll keep you updated and we'll just have to play it by ear. Sorry.**


Jessica said...

Well, if you are anywhere near us at any point after you guys have been to the family christmas on our side, let us know. I'll be glad to share the wireless connection if you get in a bind.

I just hope the traveling and everything goes smoothly for you guys. Holidays in this family are hard enough, without the added pressure of traveling. Deep breaths...deep breaths.


Marz said...

Wow! 1800 miles with 2 dogs & 13 month old? Yes, that would stress me out too, since I always "feel" like i'm forgetting something.
Try to have a good vacation anyways, I know work will delay the fun, but maybe you can get it done early & have more time for family then you think. Either way, Happy Holidays!!!

marci said...

First, thanks for the kind words on my blog regarding my FIL. It's gonna be an interesting week to say the least. I don't know how my husband is going to hold up.

Have a safe trip cross-country. I can't imagine doing it myself. I was dreading 500 miles in a car with me and two dogs for my dad's funeral. (Didn't come to that, thankfully!) We'll be staying local and not going back to Ohio for the holidays. Mom decided to leave town and go to Vegas instead.